There’s a beautiful story aching to be told.

You know it’s yours to tell and yet, you can’t bring yourself to share it. One of mine is about a well-loved one eyed teddy bear.

I have deadlines for writing and art opportunities. They’re looming.

Tuesday, an old question about a title resurfaced and God answered. God gave me the subtitle for the book idea I’d decided to forget.

Last year, I was given a t-shirt with the word INFLUENCER across the chest. It’s in my closet. It’s not me to proclaim such a label. I imagine people thinking,

“Really, who does she think she is?”

But, I am and you are too. Influencing others.

Whether it’s your faith or your confidence in anything else. You, by your beliefs lived out in what you do, are an influencer.

“Agree with God, and be at peace; thereby good will come to you.”
‭‭Job‬ ‭22‬:‭21‬-ESV‬‬

Job is influential because it made no sense to agree with God in his plight, but he remained committed to God being God.

You likely will never know all the people you influence.

I keep procrastinating writing and sending my Artist portfolio to two places I recorded as goals. The reason is an honest one. I don’t want to do it halfway. Because haphazard is my “go to” set up to accept rejection.

A way to ease the I wasn’t good enough anyway.

This is my truth. I do not like rejection. Thankfully, I am getting better at accepting it…of understanding that offering my art and words to the world is so much less about me than two things:

My confidence in me being made by God to be a creative.

And bravely understanding that my patterns of sabotaging my opportunities are not personal defects, only ingrained ideas that are being gently unlearned. (This is a biggie, hold it closely if it resonates for you.)

A prayer, maybe you have something to do and you’ve been afraid. It’s okay. We’re learning.

Go gently as you pray.

Dear Lord,
Help me not to be haphazard or half-hearted. Help me to be fully me and present knowing that you are the maker of me, the intricacies and hopes that stir fear. Help me to know that you’re the Creator and I’m just the sharer.