“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭12:1‬ ‭NLT‬‬

It’s trendy to choose a word for the year in some circles. Make a hashtag, tag it onto your posts, think about what it means to you.

So, when I chose endurance it was a subtle choice. Not working out with a buff trainer flipping tires and doing burpees kind of intention.

No, I chose endurance because it seemed to be the mindset to the phrase I like to live.

Continue and believe.

me

It felt like a soft determination to put action and patience and steps forward. No destination or goal, just keep going.

And I liked the idea of it. It was doable.

Then the pandemic crept in and took over and I laughed a little cynical giggle, what was I thinking to choose the word endurance?

But, I didn’t let it consume me. I decided it meant what I meant it to mean.

Months have passed and the days are written in my journal with the word “surrender” written daily and circled, the thick circle somehow making me believe I could and should do it.

Because I love words I found myself not really understanding the purpose of the word and my daily circling.

I began to feel it was something different God wanted me to embrace.

Today marks the return of my very old and reliable friend.

Today, I return to trust. The word surrender can be found in the Bible in the context of battle. Not once is it found in the New Testament, only the idea of it.

I’m fully on board with idea, the idea of giving my concerns, my goals, my worries to God in surrender and letting Him filter the outcomes. I am for this for sure. I’m just more certain that now more than anything I need to recommit my mind to “trust”, the word and decision I used to scribble on my wrist before making a speech or decision.

Yes, I am returning to trust today.

And I’m sticking with endurance in my own unique way.

Believe and continue.

Trust, a good word. I hope I’m known for not quitting, not striving to be the grand winner, simply staying in the race.