Life and God are in constant intersection.
Places you find yourself standing other than you planned and in locations you’ve become accustomed to, you are close to God, when you take stock of forgetting and finding again, what is there.
You meet a little lady by mistake who is tiny like your grandma, neat as a pin like her and she smiles and forgives you for ringing her doorbell, going to the wrong address, she tells you she wishes you’d stop back by.
And you think, now if that’s not God, I have no idea what it is.
To see your grandma when you needed her kind of gentle assurance, yes, that was God!
Being close to God, being where He wants me to be and doing what He wants me to do.
With my being mama, wife, executive, writer, painter, friend and follower.
These are things I will know clearly and eventually, adjustments like shadows of color to accentuate an angel’s waist or taking away a showy word to be simple, succinct.
It is work. It’s okay, though. God is in it.
Never an anxious seeking, always a contented watching unexpectedly yet ever hopeful wait.
I heard the geese and thought “Here they come.”, the acknowledgment of my mama, her words when she heard them.
I slowed my steps as the V shape turned away and then smiled and watched as they turned back my way.
It was a small thing, to see geese fly over and remember my mama.
Remember God’s pattern.
I forget and I forge ahead making mental and pencil note of things to try, challenges I should continue and I take some off the list, cross through their name, thick leaded takeaway, giving myself permission to let that one go.
To keep taking small, deliberate steps and to know that when I jump in to pressuring myself to join in, to hurry up and finish or to feel afraid I might not catch up,
That’s anxiety talking, that’s fear and I feel it in the place that the counselor noticed my trauma liked to dwell.
Noticing now, let that go,
That will not serve you well.
You are close now, close to what God wants you to know.
He is close.
We are His work.
“The works of his hands are faithful and just; all his precepts are trustworthy; they are established forever and ever, to be performed with faithfulness and uprightness.”
Psalms 111:7-8 ESV
Closing out 31 Days with some sermon notes from myself:
Write from small sweet experiences.
Try not to veer back to pitiful.
Recognize when you do.
Write what you’ve been avoiding.
Notice God’s answers in your day.
Pay attention, you’ll know clearly, what to say, what to paint, what to write and
Where to go.
God is everywhere. Don’t forget to notice.
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Thank you for writing bravely and openly about your life, writing and struggles. It’s been an honour to read your words. May God continue to bless and inspire you. x ❤
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