Late summer days felt long last week. I walked late in the evening, forcing myself to move, not sure I’d be better for it. Two days with music and Colt, the humidity still as ugly and thick as sludge. Returning home, up the curvy hill, feeling nothing more than well that’s done for today. Heavy, exhausted and thinking about way too much, my days ended that way early last week.
Then, on Thursday I walked alone. It was even later than before and I was embraced so sweetly, feeling change in the air, a wispy cooler breeze. My walk, more patterned, the sound of shoe firmly hitting pavement, tap the ground with toe, raise the heel, walk on Lisa, walk on.
I walked head up, glancing one side then the other encompassed by sky, cloud and treetop; I began to let go the piles of mental junk mail, recycling the good.
The sky is changing now with the season. The blue is more azure, the clouds more shadowy gray and foreboding and just at the right time of day, a tapestry of a sweetly, subtle pink in contrasting texture.
And so, that evening I had space enough to ponder faithfulness, of God.
How every morning last week, the geese flew over our back yard when Colt and I were out. I’d stop to listen as they approached and say to myself “Here they come. ” not in my voice, but my mama’s. I was taken back to the dock and the contentment of simple expectation fulfilled, of geese flying over a pond, a simple sameness, a faithfulness.
A gift every morning. God’s, the geese and mama’s gift to me.
I thought of how these last weeks, God kept me still and quiet and waiting.
Less adamant in my jumping ahead.
I sense God now, in this time of change, guiding me.
The things that troubled, somehow have become smaller, resolved or resolving.
I topped the hill on our curvy road and looked ahead, almost evening then. I stopped and waited, hoping to prolong the view. This view, a faithful sky, a sunset and the promise of a flock of geese in the morning.
Your unfailing love, O Lord, is as vast as the heavens;
your faithfulness reaches beyond the clouds. Psalm 36:5
Because, God is faithful.
Because God believes in us even when we don’t believe in ourselves.
Sovereign over us…all around us.