Day 29 – Mercy

I’m giving myself mercy today because I can’t think of anything original or feel like really stringing words together that may be witty or cause one to pause and think.

I keep thinking about Matthew Perry. I know, I know. I don’t know him and he’s a celebrity.

But, I keep wondering if his drowning was intentional or if he passed out from drinking or drugs which would mean he’d fallen backwards

maybe again.

I walked and wondered if it was shame over a slip up that led to him falling too far to get back up.

I wondered about shame in general as I willed myself to get up from my painting desk to get fresh air.

To exhale, inhale, notice life on a solitary close to dark walk.

I thought about shame. I wondered if it can make you ill, physically ill.

I walked on, quietly.

Talked to God in my mind.

Took the long way back home

And saw a dove perched on the street sign on the corner.

And I don’t know why,

It made me think of mercy.

A bird sitting contentedly.

Expectantly.

Mercy that never relents, never let’s go.

Remember this good thing today.

Mercy remains.

Give yourself some grace and mercy today.

You’re not too far gone.